The past couple of weeks have been hard. We got some bad news regarding Aaron's job, we seem to be catching one sickness after the other, and then there's everyone facing such heavy stuff around me. My heart hurts, and I'm exhausted.
Today, finding out one of Dexter's classmates lost her mom, really broke me. I don't know the little girl, and I didn't know her mom, but it just hurts me to know that someone Dexter's age is facing such a gut wrenching loss. I find myself praying the family knows Jesus, and that in the midst of this incredible heartache,they still have hope.
I recently started listening to Kari Jobe's newest album, The Garden. Knowing the stories behind many of the songs , makes me wish I could send everyone hurting or in a rough spot a copy. The title track says this, "Faith is rising up like ivy reaching for the light. Hope is stirring up inside me making all things right. Love is lifting me from sorrow catching every tear. Dispelling every lie and torment crushing all my fears.You crush all my fears with Your perfect love."
I guess more than ever before it's so obvious how fragile life is. It truly is a vapor, here one moment and gone the next. In the midst of all the suffering and trials, there is a hope. There is a Savior that makes beauty from our ashes. He gives gladness for our mourning, and a peace that passes all understanding. He knows the tears we cry, and He cares.
There are so many things in this life I don't understand. So many things I will never understand. One of the many songs that has been on my heart lately is "King of the World" by Natalie Grant. It puts it so simply. "When did I forget that you've always been the King of the world? Try to take life back, right out of the hands of the King of the world. How could I make you so small when You're the one that holds it all?When did I forget that you've always been the King of the world?" His ways are not my ways, but I do trust that He loves me and He is good even when I don't understand.
